So it's been taking me forever to actually start this blog. We woke up this morning to dense fog outside. It was the last morning that Deidre would wake up in Puerto Rico. Tomorrow is my last day in this house. It's really starting to hit me that things are going to be changing now. It's also finally hitting me that school is really over. I passed all of my classes, and now I'll be staying in Mayaguez for a week before I head to Caguas where I'll be staying till August 8th. I think now is the time in my trip that it will really feel like I'm living in a different country. It didn't really feel like it when Deidre was here, because we pretty much just spoke English with each other, but now I'll be living with people that will be speaking Spanish to me.
But it's really weird to be sitting here all alone knowing that I really am here all alone right now. And I won't being seeing Deidre anymore. It's weird going from being with someone almost 24/7, to maybe never seeing them again. At least my friends back home I knew that I was going to see again in a few months. I know it's going to be even harder once I leave. I know I plan on coming back, but if it doesn't actually happen, I'm never going to see the friends that I have made here. And I am so thankful for everyone that I have gotten to know here. It's hard moving to a different country where you're not comfortable with the language and you only know one person, but that person is on the exact opposite side of the island. It's a very scary thing. Four years ago, this was just an idea that I wasn't sure was actually going to happen. Even this summer, I wasn't sure that I was actually going to do this. There were so many times that I just wanted to give up and chicken out. I wanted to give up even a few months ago. But this trip has taught me that I really can do what I want if I set my mind to it. I'm a very ambitious person, and that's one of the things I like best about myself. And now I'm going to be spending the summer living with 2 different Spanish-speaking families, and doing everything in Spanish. I know my Spanish has improved so much this semester, but it's still going to be difficult to get used to. But if my Spanish can improve this much with how little Spanish I actually did, then I do think that I can become fluent (or close to fluent) this summer.
But it's really weird to be sitting here all alone knowing that I really am here all alone right now. And I won't being seeing Deidre anymore. It's weird going from being with someone almost 24/7, to maybe never seeing them again. At least my friends back home I knew that I was going to see again in a few months. I know it's going to be even harder once I leave. I know I plan on coming back, but if it doesn't actually happen, I'm never going to see the friends that I have made here. And I am so thankful for everyone that I have gotten to know here. It's hard moving to a different country where you're not comfortable with the language and you only know one person, but that person is on the exact opposite side of the island. It's a very scary thing. Four years ago, this was just an idea that I wasn't sure was actually going to happen. Even this summer, I wasn't sure that I was actually going to do this. There were so many times that I just wanted to give up and chicken out. I wanted to give up even a few months ago. But this trip has taught me that I really can do what I want if I set my mind to it. I'm a very ambitious person, and that's one of the things I like best about myself. And now I'm going to be spending the summer living with 2 different Spanish-speaking families, and doing everything in Spanish. I know my Spanish has improved so much this semester, but it's still going to be difficult to get used to. But if my Spanish can improve this much with how little Spanish I actually did, then I do think that I can become fluent (or close to fluent) this summer.
Again, I can't believe today was my last day with this girl. Before I got here, I was really scared that we would end up not getting along, or hating each other. But I can't really complain. This girl is definitely something else! It's going to be weird not being able to just walk down the hall and talk to her. It was nice knowing that if I needed to talk to someone, there was at least one person there to listen. It was a wonderful semester, filled with a ton of laughs and memories, and I hope that we meet again soon someday. The way she spoke about Colorado really makes me want to visit! I hope that everything goes well for you! And congrats to your brother for graduating! Until we meet again.
And that was all she wrote....
XOXO Ericka
XOXO Ericka